As of 10AM yesterday morning, I am horseless. No longer a horse owner. No horses in my backyard. This is an adjustment. Good and sad. I am delighted I was fortunate to find a good home for Starry. I am sorry I caused Sherry to cry. She loves Starry also, and she doesn't love changes and transitions. I know I provided something predictable and reassuring for her, that I then took away. Regrets there but not the depth of regret that would make me change my mind. Not looking forward to the winters anymore. Not willing to do the work just because I have in the past, considering the actual cognizance and appreciation for the service is pretty low. Got this accomplished with minimal fuss too, 2 months before my cut-off. WOW!
I will miss everyone but the coming winter was holding only dread I'm afraid. The weather really gets discouraging when you HAVE to go out in it and you are... of a certain age. And when your elbows hurt for 6 months from carrying frozen water buckets. Apparently I am a worrier, not a warrior!
They are a way of life; so many decisions in my life have been based on horses. What to draw in kindergarten. Where to go to college. What to be when I grow up. Where to live. What I do that day or week or month. This will definitely be an adjustment.
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